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Food: Friend or Frenemy? Part 2
In Part 2 of my Food: Friend or Frenemy? series, I am going to explore my relationship with food. I’m new to Recovered (four months!). Newly Recovered is a precarious position. It’s new…
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Food: Friend or Frenemy? Part 1
Confession: I Recovered from my eating disorder without ever really examining my relationship with food. I recognize how strange that sounds. However, most of my recovery focused on examining and processing the thoughts and feelings…
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Year of YES!
I am really excited about my 2016 New Year’s Resolution. After thirty-plus years of trying different versions of the same resolution (to lose weight), I have given up on body focused resolutions. This year I…
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The Beginning of a New Journey
Last November, I started this blog because I wanted an outlet to share my story. It seems like no one ever talks about eating disorders, yet so many people have them or know someone who does. There…
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Cease-Fire
I can’t remember a time when I didn’t have a negative body image. The crippling doubt, loneliness, shame and depression that accompanied my self-hatred started long before eating disordered thoughts and behaviors showed up and remained after the eating…
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I Forgave, but I Will Not Forget
*TRIGGER WARNING: I talk about sexual assault. Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter. – Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr. Several weeks ago, I started writing…
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Recovered Isn’t A Fairytale
Affirmations are important. Another tool in my anxiety management toolbox. Little mental reminders that reinforce who I am and what is important. As I progress through recovery my affirmations evolve. While it may not seem like one, reminding…
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Seeing the Forest for the Trees
Last week a friend showed me some pictures from his vacation to San Diego. The above picture immediately grabbed my attention. I loved it because the way the light shines through the trees reminded me how important it is…
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A Dialogue
Continuing with the car analogy I used in last Wednesday’s post, we find Healthy Ali driving on the road to Recovered and Eating Disorder Ali tucked away in the trunk (I’m picturing a white sedan with tan…
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The Most Compelling Reason to be Recovered is Me. It was Always Me.
I could probably write a Game of Thrones length series of novels with all my eating disorder thoughts over the years. For a very long time I had no idea they were “eating disorder” thoughts. I just thought…
