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It’s Hard to Hide From Yourself When Journaling Regularly
Trigger Warning: Eating disorder thoughts and behaviors In January 2015, I started yet another diet/punishing workout regimen with the hope of fixing my life. By mid-February, I was mentally and physically holding on…
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Spinning My Wheels and Going Nowhere
Trigger Warning: Diet talk. January 2015 started out like every other year. I was tired. Tired of hating myself and what I looked like. Tired of feeling like a lazy mom, a…
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New Blog Series: Revealing My Road to Recovered
Addictions, disorders or diagnoses do not spontaneously manifest. That’s one of the reasons why they are so pernicious. The origin of an addiction or disorder can be unnoticeable, but surreptitiously spread and infiltrate…
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Hello Again!
It’s been almost two years since I shared via this blog. I am excited and a bit anxious. Over the past two years, I became a certified eating disorder recovery coach through The…
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Creating Space for Choice
An eating disorder is not a choice. What makes eating disorder recovery so excruciatingly hard is that recovery involves choice. Since the eating disorder won’t give you a choice, recovery demands the painstaking…
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I don’t know who needs to hear this, but… Recovery is hard AF
Recovery is just as hard as it feels right now. I remember feeling like recovery was too hard because every time I tried to confront or challenge a behavior, the urge to use…
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Episodic Depression
I wrote the blog post below over two years ago while in the thick of a depression. I didn’t post it back then for a myriad of reasons, but mostly because I was…
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Fitness Trackers Fuel Obsession and Dependence
***TRIGGER WARNING: ED thoughts and behaviors discussed Valentine’s Day 2015. Steve made an incredible meal and my family was all together. I love that my Dad is looking at my Mom (taking the…
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Let’s End Body Shaming
**TRIGGER WARNING: Body shaming. We have the power to end body shaming. That’s right. You. Me. Him. Her. They. All of us. It will require some tough work, but we can do it.…
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NEDA Walk: Raising Money to Support Eating Disorder Research, Education and Awareness
2018 St. Louis NEDA Walk This year’s St. Louis NEDA Walk is scheduled for April 7, 2018. The Missouri Eating Disorders Association (MOEDA) is a proud sponsor of the walk. Our team at…